Do you really like yourself? Don’t just say, “Yes” without thinking for a few minutes about it.
Take a few minutes and really seriously think about who you are right now by answering to yourself these questions.
Be totally honest with yourself and answer these questions about yourself to yourself (I’m not listing):
Do you exhibit a different persona dependent upon with whom it is you are with and upon the circumstances?
Do you act the same way with everyone and during all circumstances?
Do you want everyone to like you and thus do things you don’t really want to do just to get them to like you?
Do you act the same way when you are alone as you do when other people are around you?
Do you exhibit honesty and trustworthiness in your life; not needing to lie so to protect various personas you are portraying?
Do you think of getting revenge because someone has done you or someone you care about wrongly?
Would it matter to you if the person or people who did you or someone you care about wrongly were to be maimed or killed?
Have you ever done someone wrongly even in the slightest of ways?
Would it matter to you if the person or people you’ve done wrongly wanted you to be maimed or killed?
Do you enjoy living with yourself and the way you are?
Are you being honest with yourself as you answered these questions?
Do you really like who you are right now?
Do you want to continue being who you are right now?
Are you someone you’d want to spend time with if you were not you and were someone else?
If you could change who you are right now, would you want to change who you are?
Do you have the desire to change who you are so to become someone you’d like live with for the rest of your life?
If you were not being honest with yourself as you were answering these questions, why were you not being honest with yourself about who you are? What are you hiding from yourself?
There are two ways to live your life:
- You can continue to live your life as you are now; using your God given free will choosing to not accept Christ Jesus as full payment for your wrongdoings and not choosing to admit your wrongdoings and continue to do them.
- You can change your life using your God given free will choosing to accept Christ Jesus as full payment for your wrongdoings and choosing to admit your wrongdoings and have God’s help in your discontinuing doing them.
Before I admitted my wrongdoings and accepted Christ Jesus as full payment for them, I exhibited a different persona dependent upon with whom it was I was with and upon the circumstances. I did not act the same way with everyone during all circumstances and wanted everyone to like me I even did some things I didn’t really want to do just to get people to like me. I did not act the same way when I was alone as I did when other people were around me. I did exhibited honesty and trustworthiness in my life yet didn’t really live it. I needed to lie so to protect various personas I was portraying.
When I was alone I didn’t really know how to act and so I would make sure that what time I was alone wouldn’t last long as I could not stand being alone with myself… and as a matter of fact, I couldn’t stand being with myself even if I wasn’t alone. There was a huge nagging voice inside me that kept saying that what I was doing was wrong. As I kept ignoring that nagging voice, for a while, it seemed to go away yet it would pop up again when I least expected and wanted it to do so. You know that nagging voice inside you which you do your best to ignore.
Before I admitted my wrongdoings and accepted Christ Jesus as full payment for them, I would think of getting revenge for my father’s murder. It didn’t matter to me if the people who murdered my father were to be maimed or killed and at one time, I actually planned out how to kill them. During this time I had suppressed that nagging voice inside me so much that I had become cold to everyone around me.
I didn’t think of the people I did wrong even in the slightest of ways nor did it matter to me. I was living for myself, as atheism teaches. Although I knew better than to do so, I just didn’t care enough about anyone else or even myself that it mattered to me to be caring to anyone.
Before I admitted my wrongdoings and accepted Christ Jesus as full payment for them, I told myself that I was enjoying living with myself and the way I was but I wasn’t being honest with myself. I wasn’t honest with myself until one day I came to honestly answer the questions you just asked yourself. I caught myself planning murders and couldn’t lie to myself any more about who I was. I discovered that I didn’t like who I was. I came to realize that I did not want to continue being who I was. I had become someone I did not want to spend time with and it wasn’t until I was brutally honest with myself that I discovered I needed to change the way I was living.
If you want to change who you are right now, you can only change who you are by using your God given free will to choose and admit your wrongdoings and discontinue doing them and accept Christ Jesus as full payment for your wrongdoings. If you have the desire to change who you are so to become someone you’d like live with for the rest of your life now and forever, only Christ Jesus gives to us the means to do it.
Honestly admit your wrongdoings, turn away from your wrongdoings, accept Christ Jesus as full payment for your sins and live the life God has in store for you. It is your choice to make. Remember, atheism and agnosticism offer eternal death. Christ Jesus offers eternal life.
I pray in Christ Jesus name that you use your God given free will to make your choice a wise one and not a foolish one. Amen.